I don't know

I've been thinking about blogging for a little while now but I never really feel like doing it. I have so many things to say but at the same time, I don't want to say them.

The few things I do want to say are this:

I am grateful for my family.

Despite all our quarks, they really are the best.

I love every single one of them and we have always been close but now,

we are even closer then we ever have been before.

I am grateful for sisters. They truly are my best friends and

now we depend on each other more than we ever have. It has taken

on a whole new meaning.

I love my dad. With all my heart.

I know everyone says this but I really, truly have the greatest

parents ever. They loved and adored each other and although I pretended

like it grossed me out, I really didn't mind all that much.

My dad is amazing.

Most of all, I'm so grateful for this guy.

Thank you for holding me while I cry, for letting me talk, for taking care of the kids and other things that needed to be done when I wasn't able, for being there for me, for being my support and for being my husband. I love you more than anything.

This has defiantly been the hardest thing I have ever been through in my life, so far.

The Atonement of Jesus Christ has never been so real to me as it is now. I'm thankful to the Lord every day for His sacrifice. Even though it doesn't take away the pain, there is a comfort in the knowledge of life after this.

Thank you mom for everything you taught me and for truly being the best.

I miss you every day. I can still hear your laugh, your voice, your "hello" every time you answered my phone calls and the advice you gave me. I will miss the recipes and the emails you sent me almost everyday. You were my confidant, my friend, my mom.

I will love you forever.